I haven’t written in my blogs in
a year because I had been busy with some “serious” business stuff. I admit, I have
neglected my writing. And now while I’m still recuperating from pneumonia after
a brief hospital stay, I am going back to my first love, my refuge from all the
hullabaloo of life, my writing. I am taking stock of what had happened to me and what is
truly important to me.
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Health really is wealth.
When I was standing by my
hospital window and watched cars and people go by, I told myself, health indeed is a great equalizer because it doesn’t
matter if you're confined in the grandest hospital room watched over by big shot specialist doctors or in a public hospital ward with overflowing
patients and minimal resources, you're still not part of the daily hustle and bustle of humanity. You are still
indisposed. You are in a pause mode until operational again.
Maybe I have pushed myself beyond
exhaustion and have bombarded my mind with pragmatic thoughts, lying awake at
night, analyzing the pros and cos of each decision with no time for leisure and fun. No time to even watch a movie or stroll in the mall. So I guess something had to give, my body had to slow me down. I mean when all is
said and done, all the money in the world cannot reverse the abuse you have
done to your body like eating unhealthy food or not taking enough rest or not
having more positive thoughts to make your mind to be more at peace at night.
Right now, I have to push back on
all the negativity that have arisen from my hospital stay and deluge of medical
diagnosis from my rounds of different doctors from pulmonologists, ENTs and IM doctors. I still
have congestion in one ear and have bouts of breathlessness. I mean, I still
have to push myself out of this dark, uncertain chapter of my life. I still
have to slug through this and drag myself out into the sun. But I believe my
writing and going back to running could help and of course eating right and
having enough rest. And how can I forget, lots of prayers too and imbibing more
positive thoughts too J
No matter how far away they are
and no matter what happens, family will always be there if you need them. When
the doctor said that I have to be confined, I immediately thought of my son and
luckily my mother in law and my brother in law were there for assistance. They
cared for him while I was away. My father also visited me often in the hospital
and had been a source of inspiration. And of course, my husband, my tower of
strength, my confidante and trusted ally and partner was there with me in the
hospital while I battled that illness. But having my son away from me was
heartbreaking, hearing his voice on the phone made my tears well up and
watching him on Facetime or any video telling me to get well soon made me feel
happy, sad and miserable at the same time. I can’t wait to go home again. Holed
up in a hospital room, it made me think about the realities of life. You may
have all the riches in the world and maybe fame but it will not compensate time
away from the family. You begin to
realize what really matters in life.
Time is valuable
When I saw some results of my
medical exam, I began to realize that time is passing by so fast there’s no
need to procrastinate to do what you have to do in life. Our body is steadily
aging, even if you feel fit and healthy.
You don’t have time to put things off, you have to pursue your dreams
now. You have to try to reach what you’ve been aspiring for. Sometimes, we are
so busy looking at other people’s lives and achievements that we forget to look
at our own and pursue our own endeavors. But we have to because the clock is
ticking. The time is now.
I’m writing this down so that I
will not forget. The Christmas rush will be here soon and then the New Year. I
should not forget to slow down and take stock of my life and be thankful for
what I have at that moment, my health, my family and God willing, time to realize
my dreams and my mission in life J
