Realizations and stuff

 

I haven’t written in my blogs in a year because I had been busy with some “serious”  business stuff. I admit, I have neglected my writing. And now while I’m still recuperating from pneumonia after a brief hospital stay, I am going back to my first love, my refuge from all the hullabaloo of life, my writing. I am taking stock of what had happened to me and what is truly important to me.



Health really is wealth.

When I was standing by my hospital window and watched cars and people go by, I told myself, health indeed is a great equalizer because it doesn’t matter if you're confined in the grandest hospital room watched over by big shot specialist doctors  or in a public hospital ward with overflowing patients and minimal resources,  you're still not part of the daily hustle and bustle of humanity. You are still indisposed. You are in a pause mode until operational again.

Maybe I have pushed myself beyond exhaustion and have bombarded my mind with pragmatic thoughts, lying awake at night, analyzing the pros and cos of each decision with no time for leisure and fun. No time to even watch a movie or stroll in the mall. So I guess something had to give, my body had to slow me down. I mean when all is said and done, all the money in the world cannot reverse the abuse you have done to your body like eating unhealthy food or not taking enough rest or not having more positive thoughts to make your mind to be more at peace at night.

Right now, I have to push back on all the negativity that have arisen from my hospital stay and deluge of medical diagnosis from my rounds of different doctors from  pulmonologists, ENTs and IM doctors. I still have congestion in one ear and have bouts of breathlessness. I mean, I still have to push myself out of this dark, uncertain chapter of my life. I still have to slug through this and drag  myself out into the sun. But I believe my writing and going back to running could help and of course eating right and having enough rest. And how can I forget, lots of prayers too and imbibing more positive thoughts too J

 

Family is the best.

No matter how far away they are and no matter what happens, family will always be there if you need them. When the doctor said that I have to be confined, I immediately thought of my son and luckily my mother in law and my brother in law were there for assistance. They cared for him while I was away. My father also visited me often in the hospital and had been a source of inspiration. And of course, my husband, my tower of strength, my confidante and trusted ally and partner was there with me in the hospital while I battled that illness. But having my son away from me was heartbreaking, hearing his voice on the phone made my tears well up and watching him on Facetime or any video telling me to get well soon made me feel happy, sad and miserable at the same time. I can’t wait to go home again. Holed up in a hospital room, it made me think about the realities of life. You may have all the riches in the world and maybe fame but it will not compensate time away from the family.  You begin to realize what really matters in life.

Time is valuable

When I saw some results of my medical exam, I began to realize that time is passing by so fast there’s no need to procrastinate to do what you have to do in life. Our body is steadily aging, even if you feel fit and healthy.  You don’t have time to put things off, you have to pursue your dreams now. You have to try to reach what you’ve been aspiring for. Sometimes, we are so busy looking at other people’s lives and achievements that we forget to look at our own and pursue our own endeavors. But we have to because the clock is ticking. The time is now.

I’m writing this down so that I will not forget. The Christmas rush will be here soon and then the New Year. I should not forget to slow down and take stock of my life and be thankful for what I have at that moment, my health, my family and God willing, time to realize my dreams and my mission in life J